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Chapter 27 of 33
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Year 0, winter solstice eve. The Sunward family chapel and the eastern road, Valdris.
The yule procession had come and gone.
It had come at the second bell of the previous evening, by the small old protocol of the Sunward yule. The procession was not a council procession. It was a family procession. The Sunward family, in years when the family had had more members, had walked the small inner courtyard with the seven Yule lanterns and laid the seventh at the family chapel altar where Aelfryn and Sunward's small memorial sat. The seventh lantern was, in the protocol's keeping, the lantern that the family laid for whoever among the family had died most recently.
In the years Anlie had been alive, the Sunward yule procession had been a steady eight-person walk. The eight had been Lady Aelfryn, Lord Sunward, Kaelith, Anlie, the small steward of the Sunward house, the chapel-keeper, the small two-paladin family escort.
This year, the procession had been four. Kaelith, the chapel-keeper, the small steward, Captain Moren.
Kaelith had laid the seventh lantern at the small memorial. The lantern had been the lantern. The cobalt-and-silver river-stone, which had been laid at the memorial since the year Aelfryn and Sunward had been buried, had received the lantern's small flame.
The procession had ended at the second-bell-and-half of the evening.
Kaelith had returned to the Sunward chambers. He had slept. He had not dreamed.
In the morning, at the third bell, Captain Moren had come through the chamber doorway.
He had said: My lord. The chapel-keeper at the family chapel reports that the river-stone is missing.
Kaelith had stood.
He had not, this morning, asked Captain Moren to repeat. He had walked the long corridor to the family chapel.
The chapel-keeper, a woman of perhaps fifty whose hands had been keeping the chapel's seven candles for nineteen years, was at the chapel doorway. Her face was the face of a woman who had, at the third bell of the morning, walked into the chapel for the morning's first lantern-trim and had found the small memorial changed.
She said: My lord. The stone was at the altar at the second-bell-and-half last evening. I confirmed it before I closed the chapel. It is, this morning, not there.
Kaelith said: You closed the chapel as usual.
Yes, my lord. I locked the chapel doors. I have, by my own knowledge, the only key. The doors were locked when I came at the third bell. They were, by every visible reading, locked through the night.
The Yule procession.
The procession was the four of us, my lord. We walked into the chapel and out. No one was in the chapel after we left. I would have known.
Kaelith walked into the chapel. He walked to the small memorial.
The river-stone was, indeed, not at the altar.
The small flat space on the altar where the stone had rested for eleven years was the small flat space without the stone. The wood beneath the stone was, by the slow long pressure of eleven years, a slightly darker color. The darker color was the small shape of the stone's underside. The shape was visible the way the shape of a hand was visible in the dust on a windowsill after the hand had been there a long time.
Kaelith stood at the altar.
He did not, this morning, weep.
He had laid the lantern at the altar the previous evening. He had stood beside the river-stone the previous evening. He had stood beside the river-stone hundreds of times since the year his parents had died. He had grown up coming to the chapel with his mother in the late winters of her life, and his mother had, on the occasions she came, laid her palm flat on the stone for a long moment and not said anything.
The stone was, this morning, not at the altar.
He knelt.
He did not knee at the small wooden chair beside the altar. He knelt on the chapel's cold stone floor in front of the small memorial.
He laid his palm flat on the small flat space where the stone had been.
The wood was cool.
He let his palm stay there.
The warmth in his sternum, which had been the steady warmth he had been carrying for the four months since the bakery, reached.
He had not, in the morning, decided to reach. The reach had begun on its own, before he had registered the deciding. The warmth went out of his sternum, into his palm, into the wood of the altar. The wood was, in the second of the warmth's arrival, informed.
Then the warmth went past the altar.
It went east.
The east was, by Kaelith's own reading, the road. The eastern road. The road that ran, by the slow logic of Aerros, toward the Greenwood-now-Ashwood and past the Greenwood toward the Free Cities and past the Free Cities toward the eastern coast.
The warmth went, in the reaching, perhaps three days east.
It found the river-stone.
The river-stone was in a wagon. The wagon was a small Free Cities trade-wagon. The warmth read the wagon's frame and its slow load of bolts of cloth and small wooden boxes. The wagon was being driven by a man Kaelith did not know. The man was not, by any of Kaelith's prior knowing, a Cult-aligned man. The wagon was at, by Kaelith's measure, perhaps the second day's distance east on the eastern road, traveling the pace of a trade-wagon's late-autumn speed.
The river-stone was in a small leather pouch in the wagon's underside, where the wagon's drivers stored small valuables they did not want to be visible.
The reach was the reach.
The reach, this morning, was not the reach into a body. The reach was the reach into an object.
Kaelith had not, until this morning, used Light of Unity on an object.
The cost of the reach was, by the working's protocol he was still learning, the absorbed worst memory of someone connected to the object's history.
The someone connected to the object's history was the original Lord Malrien. The river-stone had a long history with him.
The river-stone had been laid at the small memorial by the original Lord Malrien himself, in the year of Aelfryn and Sunward's deaths. The original Lord Malrien had been, in those years, his father's closest friend at the council ring. He had brought the stone from the Cobalt River at the eastern Sunward foothills. He had laid it, at the small memorial, with his own hand.
The original Lord Malrien had died twenty years ago, on the eastern road, at the small flat clearing at the third bend.
His worst memory, the morning of his death, had been the moment he had arrived at the carriage and seen what had been done to Elena and Lyanna.
That memory came into Kaelith.
It came into him fully.
He felt, by the second of the absorption, the original Lord Malrien at the carriage's overturned side. He felt the cobalt-and-silver of the spring grass at the road's edge, the particular smell of smoke and broken wood, the weight of his daughter's small body in his arms when he reached for her, the impossible slow knowing of the worst thing has already happened, and I was not here for it.
He felt the original Lord Malrien's last seventy seconds.
The seventy seconds were the seventy seconds of a man at the carriage who had, in those seventy seconds, understood what had happened, attempted to fight the original Ash-Wolf with a small council-seat dagger that was the gift of his own investiture, failed, fallen at his daughter's side, and died with his palm flat on his daughter's small face.
The seventy seconds settled into Kaelith's sternum.
They settled beside Aelfryn's seventy seconds, which had been Kaelith's first absorbed memory, in the bakery in the Lower Sward four months ago.
The two seventy-second memories were now, in his sternum, adjacent.
They had not, until this morning, been adjacent.
They had been, by the telling of Kaelith's life, the same span of seconds in two different lifetimes. They had now, by the morning's reach, been laid together.
Kaelith took his palm off the altar.
He sat back on his heels.
He drew breath.
The chapel-keeper, at the chapel doorway, had not, in the morning's long pause, moved. She had been watching. She had not, by her own small reading, intruded. She had been, by long chapel-keeper protocol, the witness to the steady working of a Sunward heir at the family memorial.
Kaelith stood.
He walked to the chapel-keeper.
He said: The stone is in a wagon, three days east, on the eastern road. The wagon is a Free Cities trade-wagon. The driver is not, by my reading, Cult-aligned. The Cult moved the stone last evening through some small working I do not yet understand, and the Cult has, by some careful arrangement, paid the trade-wagon driver for the small leather pouch's eastward travel without telling the driver what is in the pouch. We will retrieve the stone.
He said: Captain Moren. Please prepare the small Sunward riding-party. I would like to ride with the small two-paladin family escort and you. Nyra, I will ask, will join us with two of her chapter house. Brother Aldwen will read the stone's working when we retrieve it.
Captain Moren had been at the chapel doorway behind the chapel-keeper. He said: My lord.
Kaelith said: We will leave at the fourth bell.
He walked out of the chapel.
In the corridor between the chapel and the Sunward chambers, he stopped.
He laid his palm flat on the cold stone of the corridor wall.
The warmth in his sternum, which had been settled since the reach, moved.
It moved the weight of two seventy-second memories that have just been laid together.
He stood at the wall for a long count.
He did not, in the long count, weep.
He did, however, allow the slow thought to come, that he had not, in his life, expected to come.
The thought was: His mother. The original Lord Malrien's wife. They had been girls together. They were, this morning, adjacent.
He stood with the thought for the still moment.
After the long count, he walked the rest of the corridor.
He went to the Sunward chambers.
In the chambers, he laid the small leather-bound notebook (Master Tael's morning notebook) and the four pieces of the Crown (which Captain Moren had retrieved from the small leather-lined box the previous afternoon) on the long table.
He looked at the small wooden horse on the bedside table.
The small wooden horse was, this morning, the small wooden horse the original Lord Malrien had given his father at his father's coronation as Sunward heir.
He had, until last week, thought the horse had been his father's gift, made by his father's hand.
He now knew it had been the original Lord Malrien's gift.
He laid his palm flat on the horse.
The horse was the small light wood of a child's toy, carved by a man who had been, in his own youth, a man with a wife and a daughter not yet born.
Kaelith carried the horse and the four pieces in his coat down to the courtyard at the fourth bell.
The riding party was eight: Kaelith, Captain Moren, the two-paladin family escort, Nyra, two paladins from Nyra's chapter house, Brother Aldwen.
They rode east.
The eastern road, in the early winter, was cold. The trees along the road were the bare trees they were. The small stone marker at the half-league had a thin frost. The light at the early afternoon was the early-winter light of Aerros at this latitude.
They rode for two and a half days.
On the morning of the third day, at the small flat clearing at the third bend, they overtook the trade-wagon.
The driver was an old Free Cities man named Cessen. He was, by Captain Moren's quiet reading at the road, an honest trader who had been paid in advance for the careful delivery without being told what the leather pouch contained. He was, in the morning's small confrontation, willing to surrender the pouch.
Brother Aldwen retrieved the leather pouch from the wagon's underside.
He unwrapped the river-stone.
The stone was warm.
It had been warm for the three days. The warmth in it had its own cadence. It had been waiting to be retrieved. The Cult had moved the stone but had not, by their working, been able to bind the stone to its movement. The stone had been, in the wagon's underside, the river-stone of the Sunward family chapel, traveling east in a wagon's underside, waiting.
Brother Aldwen handed it to Kaelith.
Kaelith placed it on his palm.
He did not, at the small flat clearing, kneel. He stood. He held the stone in his palm. He looked, briefly, at the place where the original Lord Malrien had died. He had stood at this clearing once before, when he had ridden out to the Greenwood-now-Ashwood with Lord Malrien-graft six weeks ago. He had felt, on that ride, the Codex grieve the Greenwood with him.
This morning, at the clearing, he felt the Codex grieve the original Lord Malrien with him.
The grief was a different grief.
It was the steady grief of a man, twenty years dead, whose worst seventy seconds were now in Kaelith's sternum, who had been buried in the Greenwood by the Cult's working that had erased him, and who had not, in twenty years, had the small dignity of being grieved by anyone who knew the seventy seconds.
Kaelith did, this morning, grieve them.
He grieved them for a long moment.
He laid the river-stone in his pocket.
He turned the horse around.
The riding party rode the slow ride back to Valdris.
In the chapel, on the morning of their return, Kaelith laid the river-stone back at the small memorial.
The wood beneath the stone, which had been a slightly darker color from the eleven years of pressure, accepted the stone.
The stone was, after the laying, the stone.
The Codex, in Kaelith's sternum, settled.
The original Lord Malrien's seventy seconds and Aelfryn's seventy seconds were now, in Kaelith's sternum, together. Two long-ago griefs, two friends.
He carried them.
He stood up.
He walked to the chamber window.
The Lower Sward, in the early winter dusk, had the smoke of the bakers' chimneys at perhaps eight bells before the morning.
A baker's chimney three roofs over had begun the morning loaves' first venting.
Kaelith laid his palm flat on the cold glass.
Kaelith stood at the window.
He carried his griefs.
The Codex grieved them with him.
He turned to the long table.
He sat.
He laid his palm flat on Master Tael's morning notebook.
He drew, very slowly, the next morning's record's first line.
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